Feb 19, 2016
Jun 11, 2015
im going thro something, n i thought i should blog this. cuz it helped me understand my self a little. so mayb it will help u.
I have Depression issues.
i gota touch on sumthing ok. pls understand what im saying. its not bad , like u think. Its just me. i have a disease . its called depression. like not manic not a freakn psycho, its just regular depression. My Disease is chronic; meaning forever.
everyone swears im not happy with them. whether that meant past friends , my family, u , our children.
the question should b, m i happy without them or u. . . ? or do i wish i were dead when ur angry with me or when i cant b with you., do i miss u or am i glad ur gone?.
The answer is id live for u when ive lost all hope n wanna die. isnt that saying something. i would choose no one in this world over u. n i want no one else... EVER. im 100% ... N if its okay with u. id like to stop crying. so stop assuming k ... i really dont need any added stress.
Just because i have issues doesnt mean im not happy. n it doesnt mean im unhappy with u. it just means that im more effected when bad things come up. i wish u could understand me i really wish ud stop using my emotional state to say im unhappy. cuz u simply dont understand. and for the most part im happy with u. n i dont wana leave n not misrable, i simply have a condition that weighs me down a lil. n im so sorry. cuz my disease does effect those around me. weather i like it or not
when i ask you to take me somewhere. like just us. im searching 4 a feeling. so thats why sumtimes i like to go out. too . sumtimes its nice to stop the thoughts. like a pressure release valve.
i know u dont understand but thats why i do art. when i do a good job. i feel proud. so in turn i feel better. i know u feel like i avoid u. but thats not what i m doing. if u let me id craft n sit by u on that couch n id b happy as a lark. but u get offended cuz thats not quality time. but i cant fix u. so then i sit there n stare at the walls. cuz im not helping or fixing or creating. then that means im sulking, or thinking or wishing i was not who i am . cuz i want u happy. but i dunno how to b happy . how in the world could i make u happy.
happiness is found within. unfortunately, my box runs on fumes. i have had a bad life. so rather than us arguing cuz u assume u are the reason im "unhappy" .. really pay attention ... unhappiness is a choice. depression is a disease. n u can read it on my face. my eyes tell u exactly how i feel. if u love me ud know what type of day im having. n try to make me less depressed n stop yelling at me cuz u know i dont love u. thats retarded, cuz i love u with my entire heart n soul.
Dec 26, 2014
Secret Santa saved my kids christmas 2014.: http://youtu.be/15lUHmE5TY8
Aug 18, 2014
Stop The Violence, the Bullying, Why is it that its rare to see someone walking down the street the opposite way you are and exchange smiles? Why is it scary at night? The reason is so simple. If all of us acted like Adults and not like children. NO ONE WOULD HAVE ANYTHING TO FEAR. LOVE ISNT A HARD THING, EXCEPT IF YOU MAKE IT HARD.
SPIDERMAN IS MY HERO TOO.... :) THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SEE THRU THE EYES OF MY CHILD.
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May 8, 2013
Izzac is one of those babies that rarely takes a bad pic. so i have 1000000 pics of him
lol sumtimes i wonder if i am still able to edit pictures that dont contain izz... i think ill try it and see what happens.... look for my next pic! maybe it wont be izzac! hehe